I'm really quite depressed this morning.

It just seem sat the moment thatI am the one making all the effort in every aspect of my life - and no one else can be bothered. Everytime something starts going well somehow it screws up, or has to be put on hold, and I'm getting a little peeved.

Take the work situation - I've got positions offered, all paying a good wage, and I can't take them because of my hours restriction and the fact I don't have proof I can work in the UK. Yeah, can you believe that. I don't have a passport so I must be some kind of illegal. I have to get one, I know. Ordered a full birth certificate - but they take 14 days to process, so it's likely I'll not get that in time either.

The whole thing is just insane. Doesn't matter if I was born here, have always lived here and have all the original documents from my birth, because there are so many fuckwits trying to work illegally I have to spend money in order to prove who I am now! I think I'll just go join the BNP. ¬_¬

At home I am being left to do all the decorating - which I am awful at. I get the cans of paint mixed up, I make holes in walls, I get stains in things... I am absolutely terrible! Still, no one even offers to give me a hand - Andrew is too busy sleeping, eating and bitching like a woman. I swear that boy is as thick as two short planks - the other day he started going on about how I had stolen his BB bullets (I know, because shooting is a favorite passtime of all good Buddhist girls). He just went on and on and on, until I yelled "And what the fuck have you had out of my room lately?".

Anyone who knows the tale of the missing knickers will know why he shut up.

Then Daniel let his dog do the most massive shit I have ever seen on the landing - and left it there. Apparently he was eating lunch. I don't care if you're doing George Bush up the arse, your dog shits in the house then you go clean it up. He is such a lazy fucking idiot. And somehow he seemed to think the whole thing was my fault and went off on a rant about how I needed to get off my lazy arse.

Who in this house does all the cleaning? Cooks meals when asked? Walks, grooms and freeds the dogs? Spend shalf the day playing with the kids to lighten her mothers workload? That's right, yours truely. I'm like fucking Cinderella.

As for the realtionship things, I am fucking bored. Seriously. I don't usually have to make any form of effort, and making all the effort is just pissing me off. I swear, I am going to lose this weight, become a pole dancer, pull some rich fuckwit and then murder him and live like a princess. I'm starting to think I ought to have gone to Monoco with Cam when I had the chance. He may have been married, but at least he knew how to treat a girl! And hell knows I never would have put on any weight. ;)

Interview at Centurian tomorrow. Also applied to Mainway, who are yet again looking for admin. Yeah, I do wonder what that lot do to their staff!! Total employemnt have also contacted me with a hope to another job, Reed want me to temp and I'm e-mailing back and forth with a few others finding out details.

Yeah, I don't rest on my laurels.

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Fefe

12:58 AM - Children suck!
Current mood: cranky

Well, I'm off to the WSH tomorrow for an interview! Everyone who works there best put a good word (or five) in for me as I've had the flu all week and am still a snot factory.

What a mental image.

Anyway, went to Banham Zoo with the nursery on Monday, and out on a school trip with Romana and the gang on Tues plus Nikki was over Tues (for take away - Alan's an old woman about them apparently, which is suprising with Nikki's  cooking skills!) so having a fun packed week.

Georgia and Romana with their milkshakes!

Amelia and Finley chill out after a long day.

Nikki walks Misty.

This is Misty, Daniel's new Alaskan Husky. Thought you might appriciate a pic!

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Fe

This is Molly, my new border collie cross sheepdog! She loves to play foot ball and fetch, and chocolate chip biscuits. Her favorite place to lay is just behind our sofa so she can watch the living room door and see us at the same time.
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Fefe

I have the hairiest legs ever created. I swear I'm a werewolf, the full moon starts coming round and suddenly I'm gorilla woman....

Anyway, in other news I have a job interview with Multiyork tomorrow, which means I may have actually found gainful employment! Yeay for me! That is if they want me. I'll just flash my puppy dog eyes at them. That or my boobs.

Babysitting Saturday, unfortunatly no fireman to drive me home this time. Will have to get myself stuck up a tree or something - burning the house down seems a bit extreme just to get a man in uniform. And then out of it. :P

Daniel is attempting to buy a Husky (dog that is) after he has been told not to. That boy is more concerned with spending his cash than anything else. I swear over £1000 a month goes on complete shit he never uses. Or in arcades, or on take-away. And guess who is going to end up taking care of the bloody thing? That's right, yours truly and mum as in a few months he'll be bored of it (just like the snakes) and neglecting the poor thing.

And it's too soon after Hiedi. It's been a week and a day since she died and already he's replacing her.

Fucking fuckwited fuck.

Oh well, c'est la vie I suppose - Daniel throws a tantrum and as I'm medded up and can't muster the energy to argue, so he gets his way.

Ohhh, I bought some butterfly PJs in peacocks. They're so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Claire

Waiting to either win or lose an ebay item - I can't be bothered to bid upon anything anymore, it'd cost me a fortune if I did.

Agreed to drag Kirsty out for a drink - or was it the other way round? Hmmm. She drinks in the Red Lion - haven't been in there in years. Not since I got stopped for ID when I was 17 or so.

If anyone asks me about Big Brother I may blow up. Like a puffer fish. One second I'll be normal and then I'll turn into the Fugu of Fury!!

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Claire

So, we're having a bit of a technological disaster in this house. First of all Andrew does something with his new 400GB external drive and deletes part of the start up files on Daniel's PC - luckily he didn't plug the thing into this PC or I would have been fuming. I don't have all day and night to sit about re-downloading everything I have back. Next the new owners of LJ screw over just about every fandom by mass deletions on the basis of interest lists.

I know that won't mean a thing to some of you, but basically they typed in a few words, and if a community group had them in their interest list the group was deleted. This all came about because of complaints from some right wing Christian group (big surprise) but after most of LJ (including just about all the groups I belong to) complained about this completely unnecessary action (which breached freedom of speech laws, and their own TOS) the LJs were restored.

Whether you've located it of not (hopefully not!) I've had LJ for about four years now and haven't had any problems - there's been the odd moment where I wanted to kick them for the server downtime, or all the times I couldn't log in for days because of technical errors, but that was all part of them betaing new services to improve. Can't blame them there, at least they're adding and changing.

But I swear, if anything like that happens again I will have to shut down my (paid) LJ.

What makes it even worse is that recently I heard of several complaints against blatantly racist and homophobic groups that were seemingly ignored because of the right to free speech. Bugger ours though!

Anyway, if you didn't guess this was from MySpace. I will actually post something here worth reading sooner of later - just got to find the energy!!

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Fefe

I just writ a reply to diptutod in her journal, and managed to slur - no, I am not drunk, my fingers are numb. I don't know why it's so cold at the moment, seems that the breezes that we are all going to need in a few months time have hit now. At least the sky is amazing, all puffy and white at one point then azure the next.

Anyway, my new books just turned up - the new volumes by Anchee Min and Alma Alexander plus Murasaki Shikibu Nikki, so I'm going to have a girly reading weekend.

I have been playing the Sims again, and over the past two days have managed to build something akin to a Heian mansion, though it is scaled down. It has 3 houses, 2 vegetable gardens, 3 decorative gardens, a pavilion, separate 'guard houses' and 'servants quarters', a bathhouse, walkways that link everything and a lovely fence all the way round. Yes, yes, I need to get a life, but it is pretty amazing. I'm going to package it then have a rethink as nothing fits properly the first time. Even figured out the roof angle cheat and made a stream with bridges that goes under the main house!

Here's a sneaky peek-

Am downloading a client for LJ chat as my MSN is overrun with people propositioning me right now.

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Fefe